Surviving Beastie Boys Adam "Ad-Rock" Horovitz and Mike Diamond have opened up about the death of friend and bandmate Adam "MCA" Yauch in their first interviews since Yauch passed away on May 4th from cancer. Both musicians spoke separately to Rolling Stone, with Horovitz saying he is "totally numb," adding that Yauch always thought he would beat the disease. Horovitz said, "He's been right about most s*** so far. So I believe him. You would get swept up in his excitement and positivity. We recorded a few months ago. It wasn't any different from before. We spent more time making fart jokes and ordering food, which was true to form."
Horovitz admitted that he was still grieving hard for his friend, saying, "My wife is like, 'I want to make sure you're getting it out.' But then I'm walking the dog and I'll start crying on the street. It's pretty f***ing crazy."
Horovitz also said that Yauch's devotion to Buddhism helped him deal with his illness, explaining, "I don't believe Adam was afraid. Bummed out, yeah. But I can't think when I ever saw him afraid . . . That gives me peace."
In his interview, Diamond agreed that Yauch made everyone believe he would get over his cancer, saying, "He had us fooled in the most beautiful way. I believed, up to last week, that Adam was somehow coming back."
Diamond added, "I wouldn't trade that optimism for anything, because the other option is no fun."
The Beastie Boys did record some music last fall -- Yauch's final recording sessions -- but there's no word on when or if it will see the light of day. As for making music without Yauch, Diamond said, "I can see making music. I don't know about a band format. But Yauch would genuinely want us to try whatever crazy thing we wanted but never got around to."